Overwhelmed

You guys. I seriously can not believe the outpouring of love I have received. It is mind-blowing to me. I see and believe even more now why God has called me to this. Thank you for your love, support, and encouragement. It means so much to me.

I'm just being honest - it scares me and makes me feel even more vulnerable having this blog. But what good is it to go through trials if we don't use them to help others or share our testimonies. I refuse to sit in my comfortable little bubble anymore. God has given me an opportunity and avenue to reach out and so I am going to listen to that calling.

A few insights that have had me thinking today. One is a quote from my best friend's pastor this morning {Pastor Andy Woodall at Northridge Church}. He said, "God wants to make your mess His message." I think I qualify for a mess currently. So here I am making a message out of it and trying my best to bring glory to God. I'm a work in progress. We all are right?!??! So if this blog offends you - don't read it. If you are bored and need something to read - read it. If you find hope in it - read it. If you are also going through a struggle and can relate to some of the feelings - read it. I'm clearly no psychologist and obviously don't have answers. But I do have an open heart and honest feelings so this is my note from me to you.

The other thought is from my sweet sweet boy who is wise beyond his years. We were in the midst of a wonderful conversation in the car tonight and you know what he told me? He said, "Mommy, you don't know what's going to happen but God does because it's His perfect plan for our lives." Yeah Buddy. Preach. If only we could have that child-like faith. He just trusts. And I'm working on that. So as I lay down and fall asleep tonight I'm thinking and praying about giving over my worries and questions about the future. God's got me. He's got us all covered. We may not have the same plans for our lives and may disagree with some of what's thrown at us. But it's HIS perfect plan. So even though it's hard and it's messy and we don't understand it - it's still His plan and I trust His purpose and His design.